This seriously rant, goes out to myself… because seriously? How do I keep getting myself into these things?
Why do I constantly do this to myself? No really, I’d like to know? Why do I get myself into these things? Do I honestly think I don’t have enough to do so let’s just add ten trillion other side projects because hey why not? It’s not as if anyone is forcing me to do these things. Nor for that matter is it as if someone said, Hey, you know what would be a great idea, if you did a magazine on top of everything else. So WHYYY did I decide that actually that would be a BRILLIANT idea?
I think what it is is that things sound really great, and really brilliant and honestly maybe even a bit of fun in the moment, and then I realize the shit storm of work I have to put into all of this and I’m suddenly exhausted before I even begin. Not that I don’t want to do it, I do. I really really do, I just wish I would think about what I was getting myself into before I just decided that I was going to add another thing to my schedule. But then, I wouldn’t be me, and what fun would that be?
As of now I have, a new podcast to prepare for next week I believe, I’d like to work on a sample version of this magazine before I make any official pronouncements just for the sheer fact that I have no idea the logistics of this and I fear that if I announce too soon (which I almost certainly always do) I’m going to have a billion things go wrong so for now, this is all just in the planning stages. Speaking of, if you haven’t voted on logos I suggest you click this link please and thank you.
On top of that there’s still quite a bit of writing I need to get done, combined with the start of finals just around the corner as we are starting week 9. Don’t get me wrong, I feel comforted when I’m keeping busy, but I’ll be a lot happier when this quarter ends and I have a three week break in which to get some (hopefully) uninterrupted work done. I say hopefully because I’m not stupid enough to think that there is any real possibility of this.